The Earth spins around the Sun at 67k mph, which means that in my lifetime, I've traveled a relative distance of 13.4b miles, give or take a few thousand. It would take 20 hours moving at the speed of light to cover that distance, approximately 145 times the distance between the Sun and Earth.

That we have any control over our lives is an illusion. But, we can feel the light traveling from lifetimes away, a testament to the wonder of our existence. We are all stardust, appreciating the warmth from whence we came.

Will Schrader
Male, 23
Moscow, Idaho
Philosopher, Fly-Fisher, Scientist

The benefits of expressing viewpoints under anonymity are vast. Any idea can be tested without fear. A thought experiment may be taken literally or misunderstood, but it will not linger with a name. However, I am not anonymous; I am me. With that understanding, I will keep my thoughts solely accountable to myself, wholly unbridled from being anything more or less.

This is not a diary; here, I instead intend to construct a map of my thoughts so they may be recorded, followed, critiqued, and experienced. I'm looking for connections, jumping from one road to the next, holding a destination in mind yet never envisioning the end. My hope is that it inspires and provokes. My hope is that I can learn more about myself from what others may find in me.

Also, I particularly enjoy random conversation topics with random people. Do feel free...

♔ / Posted on January 05 2012 at 4:28pm with 3 notes

Waiting…

at my parent’s house in the Boise area. Waiting for my dad to get home from work. I’m looking forward to a lovely debate about being an atheist and disagreeing with my circumcision, followed by a conversation of my current financial situation/job hunting/what I want to do. At least I can say life is certainly a surprise. I had envisioned my graduation as some portal to a new beginning, a step towards making a change to better the world. It seems like such an insignificant achievement looking back. I have a degree in Env. Sci. with a minor in math and a focus in hydrology. For someone living in the Snake River Basin, I should be in the highest demand. And maybe I am. But all the physical science seems so utterly and completely dwarfed by socio-political/ethical issues now. I could never work in a position that utilized the skills I just spent 4.5 years and thousands of dollars acquiring. I feel like I’d be the definition of indifferent, guilty as any man brought before the world council at the Nuremberg Trials. Maybe the most dangerous thing my parents/the church ever taught me was to do the right thing/have moral conviction. I am aware of suffering, I have the empathy to identify with it, and I believe I could, with enough determination, acquire the influence to stop it. But it will cost me everything. The life I wish to have and the life I’m convicted to live contradict. My complete focus on one issue will block out all the rest. It will hurt people close to me but save strangers from making the most horrible of mistakes. I wish I could care less about everyone.

I wish we could build a cabin in the woods and shut the windows in the winter. I wish spring would come without the pollen, summer with the sun veiled in clouds, and autumn for 5 months of the year. I wish all I had to worry about was living my life. Maybe when I’m older, when I feel that revolution is a passion for the young, I can be free. Maybe when I’m older, my prose will feel less anxious…

I’ve been alone now for an hour, but it feels like forever. I don’t handle it as well now as I could in the past. I’ve never missed anyone. I’ll be home soon, love…

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